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I understand what you're referring to. Because I never had it.

I've always been too serious.

I'm the oldest of the brothers. In a way, I've always been responsible for them.

I was the most mature of my classmates. I never fit in.

I'm so glad school ended. Despite its ending almost dissolved the two greatest friendships I had.

In a way, I'd love to get to the state you're talking about for the first time.

How are you going to do it?

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Aug 12Author

Ah, I'm sorry to hear that. Too much responsibility thrust upon you too early. I have some people in my own family who had to go through that. On the one hand, it's sad they lost out on this period of innocence. On the other, I marvel at how mature they became so early on, and how it set them up so well for the later decades of their life.

Of course, as an adult, there are always things that "get in the way" of living like this. I think it's really just waking up each morning with fresh eyes and then doing our best to approach each day with a jovial, relentless but flexible spirit. And lots of dancing, jokes, and video games (or whatever else you enjoy) sprinkled throughout the day in small doses, of course!

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Video games. I'd love video games.

Just don't have time for that. And I already spend too much time staring at screens.

But I sing and play guitar. I think it's my way of playing now.

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Aug 20Author

Wonderful! Music really heals the soul like little else.

With regards to video games, I also don't have the time anymore to play all the games I want to play, so for some of them, especially the ones where I care about the story, I just watch a streamer I like do a playthrough. If I can watch 4 hours of some TV show, might as well watch 4 hours of my favorite game. 😂 But only do it on occasion.

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Ahah, if I had 4 hours to watch a streamer, I'd play for 4 hours!

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Aug 20Author

Over several days, of course! 😁 But both good options :D

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I loved this piece. It's crazy how those simple high school moments, like bus rides and morning music, felt so ordinary then but seem so precious now. I agree that the idealism of youth is something worth holding onto. Maybe growing up doesn't mean losing that spark, just figuring out how to keep it alive in a more complicated world.

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